Writing About Writing

How Did I Stumble Back Into Blogging Again?


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I started taking blogging seriously in 2012 when I signed up for the Tribe Writers Class by Jeff Goins. I knew that I wanted to be a writer of some sort, but (a) fear of being judge by well-meaning family members, (b) I needed steady and stable income for said family, (c) I couldn’t justify to anyone including my mentors why I wanted to get a Masters of Fine Arts in Creative Writing.

So, I decided to blog in secret while working full-time. In order to get the best of both worlds.

My initial attempt at blogging had to do with life after college. At the time I just graduated with my A.A. Degree at the age of 18, and had no plans of continuing higher education (bachelors or higher).

The blog was known as The Life Major (no longer active). And, I made great blogging companions throughout that project. I figured that I could share with the world what I thought about tuition rates, gap years, etc. As I became more confident with the blog, I started sharing my work with friends.

They found my content bold, witty, and entertaining. I shared my heart and soul on that first blog and hoped to gain readers along the way. After getting such positive feedback, I shared my blog post with my family. At this point, I was confident that they would appreciate my ideas since it was becoming more than just a hobby.

Unsurprisingly, I got the reaction that I should’ve, in hindsight, seen coming. My family felt indifferent or didn’t care about my blog posts. One family member even started a heated discussion about how pathetic I sounded in my blog posts.

Hearing that about something as simple as a free, public, blog crushed me. I couldn’t crawl out of a steep series of writer’s block. I couldn’t even function as a writer, let alone a blogger. No matter what positive feedback I received, I slowly abandoned my blog.

By 2017 – 2018, I got out of a two-year battle with self-hatred, depression, loneliness, and writer’s doubt.

I didn’t even pick up books to read any more. I didn’t want to be reminded of writing or literature. I had off and on battles with family whenever I tried to keep on my writing journey. So, I was sick of fighting and buckled down and focused on doing the thing I hated the most working behind my desk at the day job.

The lack of books and writing in my life was so bad that I abandoned my local public library. My library card even expired from lack of use (who knew!).

When I started therapy to deal with some of my dark emotions, she stated that I should go back to blogging.

I told her, I couldn’t. She said I should go back and just not tell anyone. I started thinking about writing again, by now my family members were so distracted with themselves they had no way of knowing what I was up to. And, my love of writing became stirred up again when I came up with an idea for a shapeshifter story that wouldn’t leave my head.

I decided to give it a try. I was already beyond depressed. What could really go wrong?

My idea for a new blog consisted on something basic, my pen name is D. A. Smith and I liked to write about writing. So, I came up with D. A. Smith Writes.

I started out small, posting two articles about my reasons for writing on WordPress, and then I started writing the Stolen By The Ash: A Fox Shifter’s Short Story, and I published it through Amazon in one week in November.

I was able to give away over 100 copies of the short story, and I received 2 reviews. I never told a single person IRL about writing the short story. But, online I blasted the news on my blog and social media accounts.

Slowly, I got out of the fear of blogging and created more articles about things that would pop-up in my head. And, then in December of 2018, I decided to publish my first science-fiction story that I’ve re-written over the years.

I wrote the novel called Syphons. Blogged about the process. Held giveaways in order to market the release of the novel. And, I even managed to scrape up the money to publish my novel as a paperback-edition with a gorgeous cover.

My fear of my family’s approval is still strong in my heart. And, to this day they don’t know that I’m back at blogging.

But, now I have over 50 posts, a bunch of fantastic followers on social media, one great short story, and a soon to be published novel.

I’m glad I came back to blogging. And, this is how I got started with it.

What’s your blogging origin story? I’d love to hear it below in the comments. Don’t forget to like the story, if it touched your heart.

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